Thanks Giving.

First of all Happy Thanks Giving to everyone. Every year I always say, "I'm thankful for everything: friends,family,food,life,health. but lets face it am I really? How many times do I front ? How many time do I take advantage? OH that one really bites it...For the past few weeks, I never really ask my mom to buy me things, I just keep pushing her, like she bought me a peacoat, then i said okay next is a cardigan then she did, and i said okay mom I really want this argyle sweater and she bought it...yet what have she bought my little brother? nothing its always me, i hate how I always make myself the center of attention in the family, I cant help it..I wouldn't ask my parents for anything if I have job, but right now with my grades I cant afford to get a job. My dad&mom always gives me money and allowance..Its like I cant never get enough, majority of that money i dont even know what i spend on, I still havent told my parents how much money i have left in my bank..My brother just walked into my room and said "you bought 2 shirts and how much money in the bank you have left"..ehh its too late now, it shipping but like its my money.. maybe is true that i'm a brat in the family and im always spending, its probably is true. What can I do? How do I be thankful ? My birthday is also comming up, I'm asking my dad for a room in Mariott and buy shitload of food for my friends, am I asking too much because I'm turning 18? and then I'm going behind his back by getting some drinks...First they give me what I want, second I got behind their back and drink ?Is that a sign of being thankful? Maybe I never really appreciated them? But i love them and I think I do.Thanks for everything Mom&Dad and I know both of you guys work so hard jsut to put big meals everyday..(we shouldd cut down im becoming obese =/) THANKS FOR EVERYTHING...

i love my friends, specially my PT&4. I always thought that I would blend in more with my old crowd, but I guess things change...I never thought i would be close to my main 5homies. Josie,Jason,Kevin,Janelle K. and Janel and Jayjay..I dont know what would i do without them, there are the first 5 people i would run too if im stuck in any sticky situation i'm thankful to god that he gave me a chance to make new friends...Real talk, if i ever need reassurance they'll always be here for me... But I must say, theres one friend that I wish is still my friend... I know shes having a goodtime right now and having a goodass thanks giving...I'm thankful to be given a chance to be a close friends of her for a quick year, without her in my freshman year I would still be the same. She basically thought me how to be myself, and that people i'm always down for arent always going to down with me..! i miss her though.